You are faithful.

The truth is it freaks me out that I'm going to start college in a few days.

While praying the other day The Lord put a piece of scripture in my heart. Lamentations 3:

But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.” The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord...Let us test and examine our ways, and return to the Lord ! Let us lift up our hearts and hands to God in heaven:... “I called on your name, O Lord, from the depths of the pit; you heard my plea, ‘Do not close your ear to my cry for help!’ You came near when I called on you; you said, ‘Do not fear!’ 

Lamentations 3:21-26, 40, 41, 55-57

God is faithful. I can hold on to the promise that he is with me, and he loves me unconditionally! At the end of the day all that really matters is that I glorified God. 

I was positive I was not going to pass the test to get into running start, and I said

Lord, if this is what you want, you know what to do...so sure enough I passed the test my first try.  

I've been starting to realize that He just wants me to trust him. So I'm gonna trust you Lord. I'm gonna need you to keep me focused because I just know I'm going to be distracted so easily by schoolwork. I want to be bold in my faith. I want to make a difference in the lives of the people around me. I'm taking your hand Lord. I trust you.

Love.

It was David's one year anniversary with us today. Which is exciting and heart breaking to know he could be gone soon. 

There's a whole bunch I could complain about. I specialize in complaining. But I'll stop there :)

I was sharing some songs with Dani that were inspiring me. One is called All of me. I told her the story behind the song, then I started singing it. She said it reminded her of David. The chorus goes,

You're gonna have all of me

You're gonna have all of me

Cause you're worth every fallen tear

You're worth facing any fears

You're gonna know all my love

Even if its not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts

But giving you all of me is where I'll start

It was an eye opener. I've said so many times "I think I love David too much" but mom was right when she said you can't love someone too much. Yes my heart may break when he leaves. But while he is here I'm gonna give him all of me. He is worth the tears I cry and everything else this family has gone through for him. I love him more than words can express. And even though it hurts I want to be obedient to Gods call.

I guess I say these things to you to remind you...DON'T BE AFRAID TO LOVE

Mark 12:30-31 says,

And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.” 

We've got to be people of love. The world will know us by our love. I don't know about you, but I yearn for my Heavenly Father! I want to be more like him! The bible says he is love. 

Thank you Lord for loving me so unconditionally! Show me how to love like you have loved me! Show me how to love the unlovable. Lord I want to be a person of love. I want to know you! You're my hearts desire! Lord take control and guide me in your steps. 

Amen